Nothing is What It Seems

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Wed, 10 Oct 2012 11:45:50 -0400

crazysugarnspice: you look happier. I’m trying to be but it’s

Tue, 09 Oct 2012 09:01:06 -0400

crazysugarnspice:

you look happier.

I’m trying to be but it’s

Mon, 08 Oct 2012 13:48:51 -0400

A spoonful of Sugar//Sugar and Cordy

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 10:03:51 -0400

crazysugarnspice:

Sugar watch Cordy’s gauze and handed the girl the backpack. “Close your eyes and reach in and grab something. We will leave it up to chance. Sound like a good idea?” Sugar titled her head and tugged at her hair.

Cordy nodded her head and reached into the bag. She pulled out a game and looked at Sugar. “ummm so this?” She asked a slight smile on her face. She like not being alone. More then she relized.

A spoonful of Sugar//Sugar and Cordy

Thu, 27 Sep 2012 08:57:02 -0400

crazysugarnspice:

Sugar took a look at her backpack and gave a little start, like she wasn’t expecting it to be there. “Oh, right! I brought cards, and movies, and music. My three most favorite things ever. Depending what you feel up to, we could like play a game, or we could watch a movie, or we could listen to tunes.”

Cordy smiled but was sad that the other girl wasn’t holding her anymore. “Umm… I don’t care whatever one you want.” She said softly keeping her eyes on the back pack.

Knowing for Sure || Cordy and Troy

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 09:05:52 -0400

want-it-need-it-gotta-have-it:

Troy could feel her nodding while he held her…so at least that was a good sign that he was doing something right. He really was at a loss as to what to do- so far the two people that he had lost that meant the most to him, came back in the end (granted Santana took longer than Kurt and barely remembered him- but they were working on that).

She looked down and asked softly if Kurt could come to them- she didn’t want to leave and the orderlies scare her. “I’ll talk to him.” Troy said softly, unsure of how Kurt would be with talking to her. More because it was barely a week ago that Kurt had finally seemed to really grasp that his dad wasn’t coming back. “Until then what can I do for you?”

Cordy felt her breathing start to settle down to normal. Her tears for now had dried up. Her heart rate slowing down. But there was this whole. This ache in the middle of her chest that she was unsure of how to deal with. This empitness that was where Greg was supposed to be.

She shrugged her shoulders at him and stayed close. “Don’t leave?”

A spoonful of Sugar//Sugar and Cordy

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 09:04:23 -0400

crazysugarnspice:

Sugar petted Cordy’s head. “Oh, Cordy, it is more than okay to be sad. You just lost someone very important to you. You act however you would like. Don’t act at all, just be yourself. Everything is going to be okay. It’s just going to take time. Lots of time I am afraid.” Sugar kept on petting Cordy’s hair.

Cordy nodded her head and stayed in Sugar’s arms. She swallowed again and looked towards the backpack. “What did you bring?” She asked softly her arms still around the other girl. She liked the feel of not being alone.

Knowing for Sure || Cordy and Troy

Sun, 23 Sep 2012 14:26:18 -0400

want-it-need-it-gotta-have-it:

He was proud of himself when he got a smile from her. He wasn’t sure why, perhaps because he was willing to help or that he had called her by her nickname, it didn’t really matter. What did matter was that he got her the glass of water that she seemed to need. It took a few moments but he was there and back with a cup, pulling her close again once he was settled.

She coughed a few times since her throat was that dry and he rubbed her back gently until she was done for now. She thanked him and snuggled up closer, he face buried in his chest. She said she didn’t know what to do and he was at a loss. “I’m sorry Sunshine I wish I knew what to say or what to do…for now though, I’ll stay here for as long as you need me- and then afterwards, maybe we could go talk to Kurt or Nick. I know they’ve lost parents…maybe we can do what I did with Nick- after Johanna. He wrote her a letter and then he burned it. It was so he could say everything he wanted to say to her that he didn’t get to or needed to say now.”

Cordy stayed in Troy’s arms and nodded her head as he talked. Those all sounded like really good idea’s. Though she didn’t know if parents compared to siblings, they probably did. Someone close. But did they count to what Greg was to her. He was more then her twin and constant friend. He was who she loved.

She swallowed hard and looked at Troy. “C.. Could Kurt come here? I.. I don’t know if I want to leave the room… I.. It’s been a while an.. and the orderlies scare me.” She said softly as she stayed in his safe hold.

A spoonful of Sugar//Sugar and Cordy

Sun, 23 Sep 2012 14:23:26 -0400

crazysugarnspice:

Sugar moved over slowly towards Cordy. “Oh Cordy..” Sugar opened her arms not knowing what else to say. Sugar reached over and pet the girls hair, softly. ”Would it be okay if I held you?” she asked. Without really waiting for Cordy to answer, she pulled the blonde in her arms.

Cordy wasn’t expecting to get pulled into a hug by Suger. She barely knew the other girl. But she wouldn’t lie that it didn’t feel awesome and safe. She buried her head into the other girl’s shoulder wrapping her arms around her tightly. “I.. I don’t… don’t know how to act.. or what to say.. Or how not to be sad..” She mumbled into the other girls clothes as tears started up again.

A spoonful of Sugar//Sugar and Cordy

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 16:38:34 -0400

crazysugarnspice:

Sugar knocked on the door gently. ”Cordy, I’m coming in.” Sugar peaked inside the door and ventured into the other girls room. She stood, just in the door way. “I brought distractions.” Sugar put down her her book bag and moved to sit down by Cordy. “Tell me what’s wrong? You seem so sad…”

Cordy moved from her bed where she had been since Troy left. She just didn’t have the heart to move from where she was. Though she needed to, for Greg. He would be so mad if she just never moved again.

So when she heard the knock on the door she sat up slowly. She smiled when the other girl entered her room. It was nice to not be alone with her head. She heard the question and swallowed hard. “M.. My twin brother.. He.. he killed himself.”

Knowing for Sure || Cordy and Troy

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 13:23:00 -0400

want-it-need-it-gotta-have-it:

It was hard to sit there and hold Cordy while she fell apart in his arms. It was hard to sit there and see his friend fall to pieces when she realized that her brother really had taken his own life…and now she was alone. She’d never be alone- not really, not when she had friends and the possibility of so much more when she got out of here. All the same she had lost the only person she believed she had left- and it didn’t surprise him in the least when she had cried so hard she had exhausted herself and fallen asleep in her arms. He knew they couldn’t stay like this: Troy holding a sleeping Cordy in his lap, so he shifted them slowly so that they were sprawled out on her bed but he was still holding her close.

Troy lost track of time, staring at the ceiling absentmindedly running his hand through her hair, but it didn’t seem too long until she stirred and he tightened his grasp on her, his heart starting to hurt again when she sniffled and wiped her eyes. He looked down and he saw her try to talk for a moment before all she managed to get out was ‘water?’. “Sure Sunshine…I’ll be back in one moment.” He said, slipping into her bathroom relieved to see a cup there before he filled it with water and brought it back out. He settled back onto the bed, back against the wall before pulling her to him so she was leaning against him while she drank from the cup slowly.

Cordy smiled just a little when he called her sunshine. She didn’t think it fit lately, but it was still nice that to him she was still sunshine. She was releved when he came back and pulled her into a him. She took the water drinking it slowly.

She coughed a couple time as her throat was rough. But she got a decent amount down. “th.. thank you.” She said softly snuggling close after the water was placed on the nightstand. “I.. I don’t know what to do.”

Knowing for Sure || Cordy and Troy

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 08:59:40 -0400

want-it-need-it-gotta-have-it:

He moved closer with the intention of holding her close, saying he was sorry and pressing a kiss to her forehead. He knew that those simple things were the only things that he could do. Something seemed to break within her: it wasn’t in her head because Troy has seen it too, he had read the words too. She fell into his arms and cried as if there was no way she’d ever be happy again. And it nearly killed Troy.

He knew that there was nothing he could say in this moment. He had never felt loss like she was feeling right now. He had never lost a family member and while he had thought he had lost Kurt, he always had that bit of hope they’d see each other again…and he had only had to deal with the pain for a few days. Cordy had not only lost her love but her twin: the person who had literally been with her from the first breath of life. Troy just held her tighter and rubbed circles on her back because what else could he do or say?

She cried hard in Troy’s arms. She cuddled close and just let it go, she could’t do anything else but she was glad that for once she wasn’t alone. She had no idea how long she cried like that or when she fell upsleep.

She did though know that she woke up laying down. Troy laying down with her still holding her close and petting her head. Her head was all foggy like when you wake up from a bad dream. But she knew this wasn’t a dream. She sniffed and wiped her eyes. She moved to talk but changed her word when her throat didn’t want to work. She raspy got out. “W.. water?”

Hi Cordy.

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 08:56:20 -0400

Knowing for Sure || Cordy and Troy

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 14:21:26 -0400

want-it-need-it-gotta-have-it:

Troy waited patiently and he knew that there was no way that there was going to be good news. Not when she looked like that, eyes red from tears and breath heaving from how upset she was. She stammered out that she needed to know if it were real- that he had jumped. Troy felt his heart stop on his chest- he jumped. Greg jumped. Holy shit he had just read a suicide note.

Cordy was crying again- sobbing would be more accurate- and he almost wished he had said no. That he hadn’t been the one she picked to confirm that everything they had told her was real. She curled up and buried her face in her knees- “Oh Cordy- I am so sorry…” He said softly, before shifting so he could wrap his arms around her, to press a kiss into her hair because he didn’t have words anymore.

Cordy felt him shift closer. She felt Troy’s arms wrap around her after saying I’m so sorry. Then that kiss to her forehead. And that meant it was true. She broke and fell over into Troys arms. She couldn’t breath, she couldn’t stop crying or making thouse stupid noises.

The world was all messed up, why would he do it. Why would he leave he was her other part. Her twin brother, the one that knew how to do everything, the one that was strong for them. He was the one that was better. She was just a crazy girl that was now lost. Well almost, she still had her friend, holding her.

A spoonful of Sugar//Sugar and Cordy

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 09:13:12 -0400

crazysugarnspice:

Sugar made her way to Cordy’s room. She really did not know what was going on, but she knew the girl was upset. She brought with her her sparkly pink book bag stuffed full of everything she loved. Maybe Cordy would not like cards, but perhaps they could find something in all the fluff that could take Cordy’s mind off whatever was happening.

Cordy was sitting in her room. She had been trying on the laptop. Trying to talk to people. Trying to be that girl that used to try and help everyone. She was glad to see Santana back, but she was sad that the other girl didn’t remember anything.

A line from Grey’s anatomy kept coming back to her. ‘Death doesn’t happen to you, it happens to everyone around you.’ That was more true then she could ever imagine. It.. hurt so much.

Knowing for Sure || Cordy and Troy

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 09:11:26 -0400

want-it-need-it-gotta-have-it:

Troy knocked and announced himself, getting ready to wait patiently at the door for Cordy. What he didn’t expect was to hear the pounding of feet and the door to be flung open. She had ran to the door and Troy was very curious as to why. It all went out the window though when he saw her face was wet with tears and her hands were shaking as she reached out for him. “Cordy what-” He said as she pulled him inside and shut the door. He walked inside and he had barely seated himself on her bed like normal before she was handing letter to him to read- aloud if there were words on the pages- something to do with Greg but it was lost behind more tears.

“Okay, okay, I’ll read them.” Troy said and accepted them. He glanced down and saw they were slightly crumpled and crisp in a way that Troy had only seen when paper got wet and then dried. He recited the words on the page and his face fell as he did. This didn’t sound good- they weren’t happy notes. The one from Greg was troublesome. It had almost sounded like he was coming back- but he knew Cordy…these weren’t happy tears so he couldn’t be coming back. “Sunshine- Cordy- what happened?” He asked softly, placing the letters to the side and shifting closer to her.

She sat on the bed next to Troy and watched him read the letters that where breaking her heart. She looked at her hands trying to breath. She needed to remember to breath. In and out. Slow easy breaths.

“I.. I need to know it’s not real or it is real or… He jumped…” She felt a sob try to overtake her. She took a deep breath more tears just behind her eyes. “he.. He.. They said he.. didn’t…” She pulled her knees up to her chest burying her head into them.

Knowing for Sure || Cordy and Troy

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 15:27:45 -0400

want-it-need-it-gotta-have-it:

Troy was a little confused and very concerned when Cordy sent him a message about needing him. She had been very quiet lately and he figured she had some things to work out. First she had Greg, then he was a hallucination, then he really did show and then he was gone again. He hadn’t known what had caused the boy’s sudden disappearance but he knew that it had really hurt Cordy.

He figure when he hadn’t her from her she just needed time: even though he always wanted to be there for everyone, he could understand that some people wanted to be on their own (even if he thought that an odd concept). All the same, when she told him that she needed him, he came running because that’s who she was- she had asked. It was an odd request- to have him come read something to her- but it was what she needed to he want to her room and knocked softly- “Sunshine, its me Troy. Open the door?” He called softly.

She kept reading the notes over and over again. She knew it was only torture, she was more then likely hallucinating she had done it before. She needed to get her mind off of this but she only knew one way. That was why when she heard Troy at the door she bolted to it. To her friend. To the one person she knew she could trust to not be hallucinating.

Cordy ran to the door and pulled it open. Her face was streaked with tears. Her hands shaking. She pulled Troy into the room and shut the door behind him. “Read these.. Out loud.. If there are words on them. I don’t know if it’s real. My Doctor said that mum gave it to him.. That Greg before he… ” She felt tears again on her face.

Notes Under

Note One:

Sara-Beth,

He left this on his bed in the new insitute. They sent it to me. I’m so sorry, if I had known that he would do something like that then I.. Well I don’t know. I love you darling.

Your Mum.

Note Two:

Bethie,

When I was there you told me that while I was sleeping you could see me. That I was around you always, well until they gave you drugs to get in the way. Well, I can’t do this without you. I need you here and since they won’t allow that to happen maybe I can go to you. Like before.

Love you Bethie And I’ll be with you soon,

Greg

Knowing for Sure || Cordy and Troy

Wed, 19 Sep 2012 09:05:54 -0400

Cordy was sitting on her bed in her room. She had a video she had put to a song playing in the background. She couldn’t stop watching it. She had to be hullicinating. Troy would see nothing on this paper.

The doctor had handed her two notes to have a friend read to her. So she knew it was real. The doctor read both of them to her. She read them. Now if a friend said the same things without her telling him it had to be real.

She felt more tears leave her eyes as she looked at the floor. She couldn’t breath if it was real. Why.. why would Greg kill himself.

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